Thanks for the welcome, Randall. There are actually lots of ex-pastors, I was completely taken by surprised. I'm in another online group with about 600 ex-pastors turned atheist/agnostic. So, yes, lots of hope!
Did I tell how i came to this conclusion? I still appreciate some of the Amish values due to my concern to live as sustainably as possible, plus I just like some of the old fashioned ways. So I still drive my horse and buggy locally.
As well as dress as an Amish man (with apologises tomy ponytail!).