Hi Jovelean, and welcome to this rational world of Internet atheism---a haven of truth and peace from the superstitions and fictional gods of the masses. 

"Well-founded common sense helped by science leads to atheist wisdom."

We invite you to make good friends by joining the busy group "ORIGINS: Universe, Astronomy, Life, Earth, Humans, Religion, Gods, Atheism, Evolution, Darwin..." with 500 discussion topics and 2800 members.

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Terence 

Please share your story with the 300 members of Hang With Friends as a discussion (see "Hints for Newbies" for how to do this). You might find some advice and ceratainly much psychologicla support.

Welcome, Jovelean! Glad you could join us. :D

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