you spent ONLY 9mths before you got out. some people....never....get out. they are caught in the delusion..why is God doing this to me...why am i being punished...etc etc.
NOT YOU HONEY! you got out! of "all the bullshit" =D and you are absolutely right, you cant get Everyone to understand us or see things our way. *shrugs* no point wishing for an impossibility. Btw when you feel lonely, rmb it's just a feeling, in physical reality, nth's happening to you. think of it as a signpost. a signpost that tells you "hey you care about people and you love to be with them". Go out there and make new, better friends who are like-minded(think of all the awesome free-ing conversations you'll have now compare to the past!) so what if you've lost a few friends.
your purpose is now....whatever you want it to be. you now can Go and pursue your hobbies and your passions. your lifegoals. try something, if you realise you don't like it, try something else(like babies keep trying to walk until they get it!)...it's only a matter of time before you find some to keep u up late at night, and gets you out of bed in the morning. can be anything, be a good mum, raise good kids, get that degree, start your own flower shop, climb mountains, give back to society by helping out once a week at soup kitchen, earn a million dollars to leave to your kids/grandkids....whatever you want. (maybe you already have a few things in mind!)
You have set yourself free! make use of this precious freedom many don't have to privilege to own. take a few risks, make decisions and take massive action. i hope you find your passion!(rmb it can be anything, anything that when you're about to take your last few breaths, you look back on your life and if you didnt do it, you'd facepalm yourself)
You are right Joseph, Down here in the Bible Belt is one of the most difficult place to be an Atheist. I became an Atheist after spending 2 years of my teen years attending a religious college. I moved away at 16 to travel the U.S to become a licensed minister. It only took about 9 months into the program to realize that I was without a doubt an Atheist. I kept it to myself for awhile. Even to this day I do my best to keep it to myself. I lost a lot of family and mostly friends from letting go of religion. Everyone seems to think that something had to of happened to me or that I am angry towards the church but nothing happened and I am not angry, I just had the ability to see straight through all the bullshit. It does get hard... I have a lot of fear that has overcome me. Fear of death is the biggest thing for me that I just can't grasp. I try to control the fear but it seems to grow stronger everyday. I am very alone now and have been for the past two years. The most difficult times is when holidays come around such as Christmas and Easter. I have become very depressed over the past 2 years of my life. I believe its because I feel like now that I do not have a purpose anymore. I joined this site bc I was hoping to hear stories from people who switched from Christianity to a Non theist and how that overcame their fear of death. How they got out of the darkness of feeling alone and how that replaced their life of religion for a different purpose?