hey. just read your testimony :p. i am ten years your senior and the son of a now-retired Church of God (Anderson, IN - not Cleveland, TN) minister. i can relate to almost everything you said. i am SO glad to see you made it out alive because seriously, i was ready to kill myself at age 19...my gayness clearly precedes my nontheism, but i believe it is my experiences as a human being, not a gay human being, that brought me to who i am now as a person who cannot believe in all that crap related to worship and self-righteous bullshit. some people may try to tell you that you are atheist because you are gay. for me, there is nothing farther from the truth. also, of COURSE you want to get attention as an atheist. This so-called nation makes decisions at every social level based on what equates to MASS DELUSION!! We gotta get these people to WAKE UP!!
Yeah, in your situation, being in a rural area, I can undertand it being hard. However, I bet there are a lot more than you realize in your area as well. They're probably just as isolate as you may be.
Antisocial or shy? There is a difference, I think. I see antisocial as being hostile to society, but not necessarily shy or reserved.
I have had gay friends, but over the last 8 years or so, I have lost a lot of them due to one thing or another. Though I live in the heart of the gay community here, I do find it terribly hard to meet guys and make friends. One, I am not as superficial as a lot of men. I am also not into gay culture or pop culture. Additonally, we live in such a consumerist, attention-driven culture, that most people want friends who they can leech off of for reasons of popularity, or money, or social status, etc. That is not a motivating force for me. I like genuine friends who are intelligent and interested in other things besides Cher or hanging out in bars.
Awww… I don’t know how someone can be your friend and not support same-sex marriage, I mean really. Good thing about atheism is that we know that life is too short to tolerate unnecessary shit such as these. I’m glad that you decided to move on, you so deserve better. Plus, you’re just the most famous member of A|N, I’m sure you will meet more REAL friends who will accept and respect you for who you are. As for being vulnerable and falling apart, everyone does, don’t worry about it. *hugs you back* I hope you’re doing better after your sleep.
Haha, I haven't slept either. I am chatting with my long lost HS best friend. Broke up with your bestfriend? I'm sure you guys will patch things up just in time for the holidays. I mean how can anyone really resist you? =)
Thanks for the birthday wishes and the add! It's so nice to meet new people. Fascinating life story, very glad you found happiness. My story's not nearly as interesting, but maybe one of these days I'll get something more in-depth written for my profile! :) Take care!
Thanks for the add and comment! I appreciate much of your response. I tend to call myself an atheist precisely because I've come to define myself against that which I oppose - religion as typically conceived in the US. However, I cannot say I'm "anti-religion" for that would exclude all of religion and I think something as personally embedded as religion is for those who are religious will mean different things for each individual. Some of it might be good, some neutral, and, of course, some bad.
Wow. What an incredible story of your childhood. It took a lot of courage to examine those hard-core beliefs that were drilled into you. And it took a lot of courage to accept who you are, both in your religious views and your sexuality. My bro lives in GA. Auburn. My folks used to live in Alpharetta. You anywhere near there?