Opening day, and my job, such as it is...

I am a baseball junkie, so I am very happy that opening day is this Wednesday.  Thursday, I will have a lot of games to watch, and I will saturate my mind with my favorite sport!!!So happy that winter is over, and spring is here.

My job is in sucky mode.  I don't have any hours on the schedule, so I am having plenty of free time to look for another job, or to write, or do whatever I feel like I need to get done.  This was not the way I wanted it to go, but that is life.  I am re-evaluating what I want to do with my life, and what direction to take things.  I wish it was an easy thing to figure it all out, but I guess this is the way it goes.  Trying not to get too bummed out about it.  Maybe something will come to me, and some opportunity will come up, or I can make an opportunity.  Who knows?

I know none of this has anything to do with atheism.  But, as I evaluate it all, and try to figure things out, I realize it is different than it has been other times in my past.  I am not blaming it on a god, or sitting around waiting for 'his will' to be done, or thinking all of these things are his 'mysterious ways'.  It means that, although I don't have the answers for it all, I can make my own plans, and try to figure out how to work things out.  It means I can look at things, and change directions as needed without consulting an imaginary being who didn't seem to be answering me in the first place. 

We live with my in laws, who are in their 80s, and also with our daughter and son, who are 21 and 19.  This makes for some interesting situations.  My father in law still has a clear mind almost all the time.  My mother in law has some good days, and some bad ones.  Lately, a few more bad ones.  Anyway, it is interesting watching everything that goes on.  I think my life has a little bit of everything going on around it. I get to see some of every stage of adult life on a daily basis.  It makes me appreciate what amazing animals we all are.  This being the only life we have to live makes it more interesting.  I used to believe that the afterlife was when all the amazing stuff would happen, and that this was something we had to get through to get to the good stuff.  Now, I realize, for better or worse, THIS life is all we have, and it is the good stuff...