Losing a family member is never easy. Though during this time I try to ignore my first reaction when people say they will pray for me. I know they mean well, and that is what matters. And if what my grandfather wanted was a Catholic mass, then that is what we will do. Our last wishes do deserve to be respected, within reason of course.
I try not to think about him being gone too much, but it's hard. It is a part of life, but not one I enjoy.