Hello, forgive my fumbling. I am so not a blogger, but i figured now is as good a time as any to begin. I have no idea if anyone will read this, but i am very used to talking to myself! I really don't have much to say at this time so i am just kind of going off the cuff.
I am a fairly new non-believer, atheist, Bright or whatever handle you want to use, and i have been recently trying to connect with people who think and feel the way i do. I have been struggling with my faith, on and off... pretty much since i was about 6 years old. I finally admitted to myself that i didn't believe in god or gods about 4 or 5 years ago. I have a hard time talking openly about my religious beliefs with my family and friends because they are christians for the most part. Most are moderates... you know the kind... they claim to be christians but really know zero about the bible or the history of the religion, but will get all defensive if you say you don't believe what they... don't know but they claim to believe... you know what i mean? Also, there are a few hardcore believers in my circle, actually go to church, do bible study, have totally drunk the koolaid! (I can make fun cause i used to be one of them.)
Thank goodness for my very understanding, equally heathen husband, but i can't talk his ear off all the time. That's why i have joined this group and a few others.
I think the hardest part of my conversion (un-conversion?) is the feeling that i have to sensor myself. I want to be honest with the people around me, but i also don't want to cause fights. I am not so much afraid of being burned at the stake as being forbidden from coming to thanksgiving dinner. I love my family and don't want to fall out with them, but i hate being untrue to myself.
Ok, so that was my first ever blog post... me mostly rambling on about nothing... I'll try harder next time. :)