Hello, forgive my fumbling. I am so not a blogger, but i figured now is as good a time as any to begin. I have no idea if anyone will read this, but i am very used to talking to myself! I really don't have much to say at this time so i am just kind of going off the cuff.  

I am a fairly new non-believer, atheist, Bright or whatever handle you want to use, and i have been recently trying to connect with people who think and feel the way i do.  I have been struggling with my faith, on and off... pretty much since i was about 6 years old.  I finally admitted to myself that i didn't believe in god or gods about 4 or 5 years ago.  I have a hard time talking openly about my religious beliefs with my family and friends because they are christians for the most part. Most are moderates... you know the kind... they claim to be christians but really know zero about the bible or the history of the religion, but will get all defensive if you say you don't believe what they... don't know but they claim to believe... you know what i mean? Also, there are a few hardcore believers in my circle, actually go to church, do bible study, have totally drunk the koolaid! (I can make fun cause i used to be one of them.)

Thank goodness for my very understanding, equally heathen husband, but i can't talk his ear off all the time. That's why i have joined this group and a few others.

I think the hardest part of my conversion (un-conversion?) is the feeling that i have to sensor myself.  I want to be honest with the people around me, but i also don't want to cause fights.  I am not so much afraid of being burned at the stake as being forbidden from coming to thanksgiving dinner.  I love my family and don't want to fall out with them, but i hate being untrue to myself.

Ok, so that was my first ever blog post... me mostly rambling on about nothing... I'll try harder next time. :)

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Comment by Angela on May 16, 2013 at 10:50pm
Welcome! I also think you announced yourself very well. I can relate to your comment about having to censor yourself. Why is it OK for us to be subjected to religious quotes and all that gobbledygook and not be free to post our beliefs on social sites such as Facebook? If I deleted all the bible beaters off my friends list, I would be left with about two friends ! LOL
Comment by Joan Denoo on May 16, 2013 at 9:48am
blue pashmina, you are not alone in your questioning and doubting, and then realization that there is no compelling evidence of the existence of god. The numbers of people sharing your thinking are growing. Many more people willingly hear statements of non-belief, even as they hold on to the old stories with all the hopes and fears they generate.
I speak openly now, have lost some family and friends, and so what! Thinking is a lot more fun and interesting than submitting to someone else's ideas.
Write your ideas here. Sometimes people will cause you to think more deeply into what it is that you understand. Growth occurs. I love it when someone can change my mind about something using careful thought while intending no harm.
Your blog gives me great pleasure, knowing you seek understanding of what this little tiny spark of life is and how to best enjoy it.
Comment by Michael Penn on May 16, 2013 at 7:46am

This site is good. Also, I learned much from watching videos on Utube about atheism. I came to my present atheist belief in 2012 after watching lectures by former Pentecostal minister, Jerry DeWitt. Religion just didn't make any sense anymore.

Comment by Rachel Riley on May 16, 2013 at 12:55am

It was nice to read your blog, I know the feeling of having to censor yourself. At least there are safe havens where you can at least vent your frustration about it. :)

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