I'm not the best fighter nor have I had formal training but I've been: punched, kicked and chopped in almost every region of body, taken/given elbows and flying knees and have been hit in the back of the head with more objects than I can recall yet - I have NEVER been knocked unconcious by ANYONE for even 1 second. ...until last night that is when I saw something on TV that *I guess* was too much for me to handle.

Deadly Women is one of those CSI murder re-enactment type shows which usually do not bother me at all, in fact I cheer for some of them because some "victims" "PIECES OF SCHEIBE" had it comming. This was not one of those "You did the right thing honey!" moments though. I didn't cringe at the fact a mother shot her daughter *the mother had schizophrenia so it was no real surprise* or that she didn't allow her to go to a hospital/left her to recover in the bathtub. It was the part when she removed the bullet from her daughter on the kitchen table that got me I think, maybe something deep within my psyche has trouble with home surgery or something. I walked over to my mom in our kitchen and could barely make sense of what was going on, told her I felt like I was going to pass out and she got me a cold clothe for my neck. I don't remember anything after that until I thought I heard someone shout "Bring him back!" and wake up on my face with my mother, grandma and a couple of my moms friends around me. I sleep, wake up and feel fine besides some minor pains in my face where I impacted with the floor. Doesn't hurt too bad though, just enough to where I notice it but not enough to really hurt you know?

My only concern now is that my mind is weak. This can't be true though because I've watched/read about much more horrid acts both real and fictional *The Holocaust, Red Square, seen/loved all The Exorcist movies, same with all the Friday the 13th movies* soooo... why wouldn't any of those cause the same reaction? I didn't do/eat anything out of the normal for me and I swear on my grandfathers grave that I have NEVER taken ANY Drugs. Unless you count Pot as a drug, but I only tried it once and it wasn't last night. Is there any logical reason for this? People don't just randomly pass out, do they?!