I'm responding to the vyvanse so much better than I thought I would. The only downside? I HAVE TO MOVE. Like, if I am not doing SOMETHING, I will straight up bake a cake or something. Another goodside? The running thoughts that drove me insane? I can actually say that I have one thought at a time now.
My mom thinks it's hilarious though.
Of course she does. I've become the living breathing poster board for ADD adults. The funny part? My grandmother knew for years that I was "energetic"(intelligent speak for I need to be attached to a treadmill so that I can power buildings and such).
And it was true. But they couldn't see it because I was "gifted". I didn't know what it was, when I was a kid, but I knew that my attention span REALLY should be longer.I thought I'd grow out of it.
I did not. I got yelled at by teachers, teased by professors,and repeatedly poked by my mom because although I was "intelligent" and "brillant"(my ass) I was like Doug from UP except instead of me going "squirrel!" it was "Shiny!!".
I was pretty mad with myself and thought maybe I was just unteachable or just an idiot. I was convinced I'd be on the streets or living with my mother if I didn't get it together.
I wouldn't recommend vyvanse unless the person's ADD was interferring with life. Why? Because this stuff is serious. Oh,and I can't drink coffee or wine with it. If I drink wine(whimper) I will get drunk quicker. If I drink too much coffee? Let's just say it seems my coffee was the medication's cryptonite.
Another med I started was Ambien. My lack of sleep(I'd average 2-4 hours a week) was turning me into the anti-christ. So my psychatrist put me on it. It's okay and doesn't give me "hangover" like the other meds did...but I want to be able to get off of it sooner rather than later.
Oh! I forgot to tell you guys. I've lost 56 pounds. That puts me from a size 22(or 24..I got BIG) to an 18. It's so much easier to move around, but I am having to get used to the increased sweating..ugh
The therapy is helping a lot(as you can tell) but I still have a long way to go. I still haven't even reached the crux of why I was in a cult for so long...but I have loads of time.
Lots and lots of time.