This is the response to a family member asking "since when are you an atheist?"



Gary Gibson Jr. November 17, 2010 at 6:56pm
I really always was one. told my pops when I was 8 in a Harris Teeter parking lot I didn't believe in god...u kno what happend next...they tried to indoctrinate me...church pretty much everyday for about ten years straight...It almost worked. They did succeed in making me feel like somthin was wrong wit me tho, cuz I was even questioning the bible... Till I was about 14. thats when I realized I wasn't christian, for various reasons we both could go on and on for days about. So then I literally tried to indoctrinate myself into other religions. I still felt like sumthing was wrong wit me cuz I didn't believe in god and seemingly everyone else did, But once I realized how similar every religion is, and how basically every major diety you can think of (Jesus,Ra,Mithra,Dionysus, Krishna...etc)are nothing but anthropomorphisations of the sun, I pretty much just dropped religion all together. sorry for the run on... Alot of it this tied in with me going thru the realizing I'm autistic shit so its been a long process, but I digress... So I now no longer believe in any religion, but still I am "Trying to be normal." by still feeling spiritualism is a prerequisite to "being normal" I start thinking well maybe I'm agnostic because something made the universe. Something didn't come from nothing. Thats where science comes in, always been a geek so I'm pretty up to date with anything to do with physics and space...also an Aspie, Incredibly proficient at spotting patterns. The LHC is making breakthroughs every day. String field theory Is gonna be proven in about 10-20 years(.also going back to school for physics either after I get out Air Force or I find a job pretty quickly paying enough bread to survive and go to school)...anyway cut long story short, long process(but good tho, I got the shackles off of my mind) of going back to my initial thoughts of god... What is god? I don't believe in a conscious god that answers prayers and creates universes. That doesn't mean that the universe doesn't have beings that are god like, in that they have technology we can't fathom like a T4 civilization on the Kardashev Scale.

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Comment by Jennifer W on February 21, 2011 at 10:03am
Good stuff.
Comment by Maverick Jester on February 21, 2011 at 9:14am

My husband spent 24 years in the Air Force and my sister is also in the Air Force.  I hope that you get to finish school like you want. After he retired, my husband worked to finish his degree.

 

 I always envy people who knew that they didn't believe in god at an early age.

 

Comment by Rev. Mathew G. Thompson on February 20, 2011 at 9:11pm

Excellent!

As far as the 'spiritual' part goes, I believe it's getting reconnected with our natural selves.

Religion has tried its best to remove us from the natural world but it always leaves a vacuum.

Hope you can get back to school, you'll be great at it.

 

Rev

Comment by Glen Rosenberg on February 20, 2011 at 2:58pm
Go Gary go.

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