This is going to be long! I haven't been in hear in a long time and have come to a hard realization. This is going to be a long story I feel like I need to get off my chest for my own health and sanity. The condensed version is that ive finally started standing up for myself and others against a very religious fundamentalist family and realized today that im a leper in their eyes and behind their "i love you but's," they want to censor me and hope some tragedy happens in my life so I have a "come to Jesus moment!" Today is the first time I've seen them for who they are and how they see me and it's rocked my world to the core! I have all sorts of emotions right now that I can't talk. I have to step back and calm down. I'm going to write it in my summary or my about me spot too long for this and I'm sure here I'm not alone, which I now feel I am with my family (other than my one brother). UGH!