I've been absent from AN for some time whilst caring for my ailing Dad. Sadly he died in June and I am just not able to cope/accept it.. I am finding myself very envious of theists because they believe they will see their loved ones again. A vain hope I believe and yet it brings them so much comfort. I would give anything for that level of comfort. No other loss has been as difficult to bear as this one and all I want is to talk to my dad again. How on earth do any of you get through this?