I just want introduce myself to you...
I am Hope... I'm Saudi..30 years old.. a wife and a mother.. I was raised as a muslim sunni..and now I am Agnostic!
I am not saying that there is no freedom at all in my country but there are limits for freedom here..
Women here can work... women can study, and I'm happy that I got my BA degree..
but that's not enough.. I feel that there is something missing..
We women here can not drive cars because most of people here reject this idea or you can say the general community reject the idea.. simply saudi community has a mind of Middle Ages.
Also women here cant do anything without a male guardian..so sad!
These two thing are the most important reasons that made women here suffer so much!!
The saudi government pays attention to the Islamic education..They taught us at schools some Islamic lessons as well as other sciences..
My religious status before Agnosticism.
I went to a mosque with a religious friend of mine and I memorized with her "The Three Assets" by Abd al-Wahhab.. I studied the "Tawhid" for Muhammad ibn Abd-al-Wahhab.. I taught the Arabic language and Tajwid for non arabic speakers.. so, I used to be called wahhabi! I didnt like the name whhabi :P I used to call myself a sunni..
I think I'm knowledgeable about sunni Islam, so you can ask me anything you want.
That was 5 or 6 years ago I'm no longer a friend with them anymore!...
I left them and moved to the Sufi Islam for 2 years..
Here are some difficulties I had with Islam
When I was a muslim I used to say to myself, Hijab–the Islamic veil- is not that good because it's difficult you know here in Saudi Arabia we cover our faces "that's the difficulty" but I have to do it because Muhammed said "paradise Is surrounded by difficulties and hell is surrounded by temptations"
Also, there is another Hadith about that,
Muhammad said:"This world is like a prison for the believer, meaning that the way a prisoner isn't free and is bound by rules, the affair of a believer is the same, this world is not one of freedom for them but one of rules and obligations towards Allah."
I adore drawing.. but guess what? It is prohibited in Islam!!!
that's another difficulty.. drawing is a temptation and hell is surrounded by temptations!!
Ibn `Umar said: The Messenger of Allah said, "Those who draw pictures will be punished on the Day of Resurrection; and it will be said to them: `Breathe soul into what you have created.'''
Now I left Islam so I can draw what ever I want :P..
I cant come out!
I cant tell my real name cuz I have to protect my safety.. also I cant come out and say; I am no longer a muslim anymore.. You know there are many insane muslims out there... I once had a debate with a muslim guy... I was really afraid of him.. so, I decided not to debate them anymore!
All arabic atheists sites and blogs are blocked here in Saudi Arabia... Atheist Nexus is available... by blocking these sites they think that we cant share our voice... yes we can! :) we live in the twenty-first century... it has to be a freedom of thought and speech.. so there is no freedom of speech, freedom of no religion..
They continue brainwash people here by telling them false claims of scientific miracles in the Koran and Hadith to keep them in the Islamic prison, or as they claim, strengthen their faith.
My turning point
My turning point was after reading the book of Dr Kamel Al-Najjar an ex-muslim atheist he mentioned the scientific errors in the Quraan!
"Critical reading of Islam" the whole book influenced me
I opened my eyes on this verse that I did not pay attention to it before!!
"And he followed a road; Till, when he reached the setting-place of the sun,
he found it setting in a muddy spring, and found a people thereabout. We said: O Dhu'l-Qarneyn! Either punish or show them kindness. (Qur'an 18:85-86)"
The Koran says, the sun literlly sets in a muddy spring.
There is a man called Two-Horned or Dhul-Qarnain (which many think refers to Alexander the great,who was represented with 2 horns in coins)
as going to where the SUN SETS. It literally says he found the place.
*Note, Alexander the great is considered a prophet in Islam.. ?!!
Muhammad’s interpretation about this was mentioned in this Hadith below,
"Abu Dharr was with Muhammad during the sunset. Muhammad asked him: ‘Do you know, O Abu Dharr where this sets?’ He answered: ‘God and His apostle know better.’ Muhammad said: ‘It sets in a spring of slimy water"’ (3rd Edition, Volume 2 p. 743,1987).
I told my husband about this scientific errors… he simply answered
Allah knows better than scientists! ….I know that he was lying to himself!!! I told him dont lie to yourself!! he's a muslim now.
I knew that muslims are correcting the Qurainc mistakes by false interpretation, they lie to themselves...this is so bad!
So, I used my brain and found myself born again! very happy! I'm a member of A/N now! Atheism is great.. All atheists I met are respectful, polite and lovely people..
I met a professor of genomics she's atheist of course.. I learned from her so many scientific things she gave me links and books.. I'm still learning more and more.
I am fine and safe and my husband is okay with my Atheism!
Thanks for reading my post and I hope that my English was fine! it's my second language anyway :)
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