Compared to some of the blogs and comments on AN and in other places across the internet, I'm a relatively newbie of a free thinker. I'm 53 years old and have only been free of religion for almost 3 years. I won't go into detail of my journey here as it's nothing monumental or fantastic. Let's just say that my hubby got me to thinking along those lines (we're both atheists now) and George Bush sealed the deal. Huh. Never thought I'd thank Georgie for anything...
I tried going back to being religious. Honest I did. It didn't happen - I just couldn't bring myself to believe anymore. I had read books, read blogs and articles on the internet, and talked with too many other free thinkers to return to superstition.
In 2006, I admitted to myself that I was an atheist. Today, I realize that admitting it and actually knowing it internally are two different things. No fanfare, no eye-opening revelation, just peace. I don't feel like I'm being scrutinized with everything I think, do or say by some sky being. If anything, I feel like a great weight has been lifted from my shoulders. I feel free. More importantly, I feel comfortable with myself.
It's great feeling alive!