I work at a little department store not too far away from my house and forgot to scan something that a lady was buying. Lucky for me, she caught my mistake and was really nice about correcting me. After I apologized, she waved it away and said "Don't worry about it.....God wouldn't have liked it"
I felt a rather large pang as I scanned and bagged her new purse. Then it hit me. When I bought "The Portable Atheist" I remembered that I hid it in its bag and covered the bag with my sweater. I remembered how I had to nod my head when my boss said a few days earlier that miracles can happen in regards to cleanning the store (whether or not it wouldn't matter, our store will never be clean). And now I had to laugh along with the lady when my other boss said "He knows everything".
Now, I'm not trying to say that I was discrimnated aganist or woe is me or whatever. But I knew that nearly everyone around me was some kind of believer and I knew how they would feel if they knew that I wasn't. I've met only a handful of Jesus people in my life who are actually tolerant of people who disagree with them on those "big" questions. Nearly all of them think you're shaking your fist at God, or your navie, or begging for attention and then they say"I feel sorry for you." or "I pray for you". The bad ones say you need to be "saved". If anything, it becomes an issue. So I kept my mouth shut. After, its not a big deal.
Still, I hate having to hide from most people that I'm an atheist. My family would disown me and the only member who knows is my dad who doesn't support it. I hate feeling guilty when people talk about God around me. I hate people not voting for us, not trusting us, not liking us, for what we think.
Hopefully they'll come around. Till then I keep my mouth shut and let them assume that I'm something I'm not. ;)
If anything, one of these days they'll catch me reading one of my books and then I'll have to deal with it.
Anyway, don't think that I'm whining but still, its hard hiding something this big.
(sorry for the spelling errors, too lazy to spellcheck)