A little while ago I posted an entry
about very depressing PostSecret in which a wife suggested that all of her husband's troubles were the result of God punishing him for renouncing his faith. There's another one like that in this week's secrets.
"I'm scared my husband won't come home because I don't believe in God."
It's kind of a role-reversal with this one. This time the wife is the atheist and she's full of self-doubt. The last one made me angry, but this one is just plain sad. Why do so many people think that their suffering is the fault of a supposedly benevolent God? In the last blog entry I quoted Bill Hicks but I think this bears repeating:
"The whole image is that eternal suffering awaits anyone who questions God's infinite love. That's the message we're brought up with, isn't it? Believe or die! 'Thank you, forgiving Lord, for all those options.'"
It doesn't even really make sense. Why would an omnipotent being care that much about a single person? Why would an omnipotent being go so far as to kill someone's loved one or otherwise ruin their life just because they doubted its existence?
I think that it's a good example of something I see in a lot of atheists. When you're raised for so long believing in a religion, it's really hard to let it go. She doesn't believe in God, but she's still got this idea that he's up there waiting to punish her for it. I've read about a lot of people saying that the worst part about being raised religious is the trauma that comes with the idea that they or their loved ones will burn in hell.
I don't know. I can't say I can relate to this at all. It just makes me really sad and I'm wondering if/why secrets like this are common.