One of my really good friends recently told me that she used to be an atheist, and then her mother passed away from cancer. My friend was on the verge of suicide, very alone, very sad, and she said she had to start believing in a god again and that's the only thing that kept her alive. I really think that on some level she has to still believe that god isn't real, she came to that conclusion before.. She said if somebody proved to her that god wasn't real (again?) she wouldn't regret believing in him because that got her through her mother's death. It makes sense to me what she went through but I don't understand why a world without a higher power is worse in peoples' eyes?? You have all the free will, free choice, bad things happen because they just do, we have a lot more influence in the world and in our lives than if you chalk it up to a higher power.. to me the reality, with its good and bad, is a lot more liberating than a higher power. Are people just not ready to be in charge of their lives?? Is this some innate need to be taken care of? Everybody's thoughts on my friend? Do you think she'll eventually go back to atheist once she makes peace with her mom's death?