Monica S.'s Blog – April 2011 Archive (3)

Alright, so my life is officially quiet enough now to update on the crap that was stressing me out:

1) The HIV Test I was freaking out about....apparently never existed. As in no one drew blood for it, doctor did not sign off on it, and I was panicking over nothing. Like an idiot. 

2) No one told me this until two weeks in. I didn't know if I wanted to laugh or punch their lights out.

3) School is fine, except my teacher still does not…

I have had the most failtastic week in my life(so far).

First, my anxiety went out of control(what am I saying?? it's still OUT OF control..) and it took me a while to convice my mom that I really really really really really really need to be on anxiety meds.

Second, my depression flared up because of the anxiety(wtf?!). So I just wanted to lay around all day. I didn't let myself though, I made myself do things and actually make headway into moving out of this state.…

So, I finally bit the bullet. I kept saying how I wanted my writing out there more, so I did it. I sent my resume and a writing sample to demand studios. I really hope I am accepted, and if I am that I am no less than excellent in my work.

Also, I started(with my friend) a vlog. I did the first installment, and it stank horribly. I was too quiet and really need to just work more on my "computer presence". I need help *facedesk*

I've been writing in my blog…