This weekend I visited my parent's graves. It's been a bit over 2 years. I still think of them often.
I have no illusions about them looking down on me, or up at me, or whatever. Still, I wanted to visit the cemetery in person. That took a bit of a trip - fly from Portland to St. Louis, then…Continue
This week was challenging. I'm glad it's over. Nothing worth big drama, just a lot.
My adjuvant treatment, for gastric sarcoma, leaves me fatigued. I function well at work, in the morning. On hard days, I start to crash-land late morning. On moderate days, I crash-land mid afternoon. I can keep going until the end of the schedule. But it leaves a lot of "homework" and it takes a day to recover.
Three years ago, a "team" of managers harassed me into…Continue
Two scenes at the County fair, here in SW Washington State. It was kind of interesting.
If I had any fire left in me, I might have approached the folks at this booth and caused some mischief. I did not have any fire in me and it would not have accomplished anything.
Since the booth, pictured…Continue
When I am an old man...
I will be surprised I made it that far. If I do.
It's not that far away.
There's a good chance, I won't.
I will consider it funny to have aches and pains.
I already do.
I will not whine about being old.
Or apologize for aging.
I will consider it honorable and amazing.
I will laugh at myself for being funny looking, and bald, and having ears that stick…Continue
Rare type of gastric (stomach) cancer. Health plan is slow about scheduling the biopsy - will not know what to expect until then. Surgery for certain. Maybe chemotherapy. 80% chance for malignancy based on size - CT scan and endoscopy. Size / shape is like an Idaho russet potato.
Somewhere I read, there can be denial, grief, bargaining, anger. I feel none of that. Just, it is what it is. It's a notable moment, I guess. But not like when I saw my parents' decline as…Continue
For the past 2 or 3 years - forget how long - I've been going to a monthly atheist meetup group in my town. Mostly it's been great. I would spend the entire month looking forward to it, and when I could not go, it felt like withdrawal. Some of the locations were a 45 min drive, and even that didn't stop me.
Mostly we have been in a few local restaurants. It changed recently because the meeting place went under. Now at a pizza place, which is fine. I don't know how many…Continue
Not having many friends in the world, and almost no living biological family, the few I have mean a lot. Last week someone, who I love very much, my day to day coworker, told me she got married in Vegas over the weekend. She's a sweet. loving, wonderful person, sincere, caring, and almost relentlessly cheerful. Having her around makes my life so much better. I love her as much as any family member.
It was interesting. I knew she was dating, but she dates around a lot.…Continue
Yesterday I was called by the nursing home where my mother has been cared for during the past 3 years. She has profound Alzheimer's disease. She has not spoken a meaningful word for 2 years, as far as I can tell. I live 2000 miles away. For many years, I tried to move my parents here, where I have plenty of room in my house. I could have given close, attentive care. They didn't want to move. My father died last year.
My mother's name is Maxine. She was born in a…Continue
Last week I drove by an estate sale sign, and had to stop and check for bargains. My god, that lady collected a lot of stuff. I asked the people at the sale, was this one estate or multiple. They assured me it all belonged to one widow who may have lived in that house for 45 years. Stuff was packed into banana boxes, piled up and packed solid into rooms in the basement, then the garage, then the spare bedroom.
I bought a couple of glass pie plates. The one thing I can…Continue
I recently made another pilgrimage to the "Town that time forgot" in the midwest. It's a 3-hour drive from St. Louis. Like many refugees from the Bible Belt, I sometimes view the region as a monolothic reason-forsaken place where all skeptics and atheists must abandon hope, and their Cerebrum, before entering. Of course, that's not true.
During this trip I made a side-trip to the Missouri Botanical Garden. It was great to see a Dinosaur exhibit, rich with discussions of…Continue
Not many places where it's safe for me to rant about this, so here I am. Please excuse and forgive my rant in advance.
We're getting ready for my Dad's funeral friday. Visitation is thursday.
It's a small midwestern town. I hated living there. Leaving for military service was the most freeing experience of my young life. THe place is a dismal small minded town that time forgot. On my many, many visits to my parents over the years, I've bypassed dealing with any…Continue