I found this site recently: http://www.sexinchrist.com/index.html

I am not entirely sure, but I think it's meant to be taken seriously.

I use it as 'inspiration' in my fetish for 'blasphemy'!

Does anyone else get off on expressing aspects of religious abuse sexually? I've had certain things actually happen to me that I exaggerate in my own mind in order to get off.

For example, a Christian who seemed to have pedophile-tendencies once asked my friend and I (we were about 14 at the time) to step into his dorm (we were at an annual Christian conference where a certain university allowed the organization to rent out dorms for that week). He closed the door behind us, which didn't feel right. He had us sit on the bed, while he pulled up a chair, a little too close for comfort. He then proceeded to give us a lecture on how we were 'tempting' good Christian men with our sexual clothing style (Our clothes weren't that bad by common standards - after all, our own mothers approved). A quote of his that I can vividly recall: "the way you are dressing serves as an invitation to men".

This actually happened - and thinking about it pisses me off. Despite the anger attached and the resulting anxiety, I will sometimes revisit this situation (or aspects of it) and think of other ways it could have went (that would have been worse.)

I also like to recall a certain 'meeting' I was once forced to have with my pastor, where he tried getting me to admit (and repent for) my sexual immorality (aka premarital sexuality with a serious boyfriend). In reality, I felt he was looking at me lustfully and felt that he asked questions that weren't necessarily appropriate for a man to ask a woman, alone in his office. I didn't like the way this made me feel at the time, but in my fantasies, I replay and exaggerate this situation. In this fantasy, I am deliberately tempting him and he gives in- and without a fight. I guess I want to see these pompous authority figures give into to the urges they so strongly deny.

While I HATE in real life when Christians twist scriptures to get what they want (or in order to express what they want to express), in certain 'moods' I like to put myself in their position.

Can anyone else relate .... or is there something wrong with my brain??!!

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I think you are having a reaction to having been put in a position of "powerlessness" by some pathetic, hypocritical, anal-retentative, "authority" figure, and you just want vengeance on the loser. Remember, religion and sexuality are complete opposites, as there isn't a religion on the planet that "accomadates" natural sexual desires. Because the religionists are so out of sync with that, they think everyone else should be as guilty about it as they are!
I spent four years in a Catholic seminary and am writing a set of erotic stories set in one. I've been talking to some of my friends from seminary about the things that did and didn't happen there---as well as things that would have been thrilling had they happened---and I've realized how much religion can *add* to sex, provided one is of a certain imaginative bent.
Hmmmm... the taste of forbidden fruit is so much sweeter!
Sure, I can relate, in concept, but most religious authority figures are male, so I dont get much outside of naughty nuns.
I did know a gal once who confided that she fantasized about a German speaking priest losing his resolve with her.
There is nothing to feel strange about. Sexuality is a powerful force and it is only natural to feel some desire to see it unleashed on those who would use subjugation subvert its influence.
Nice site there. God's gift of masturbation! Although under "threesomes" it has the usual double standard of female homosexuality being groovy and not male.

Religious blasphemy can be hot!

I knew someone who thought Jesus was sexy. I also think the idea of "burqa porn" is kind of hot, and I've found some pictures of it, too.
I think that because religion and sexuality are so opposite, as John replied, the thought of intertwining the two is super hot. I would do a nun just to say I did it...hahahaha...and to tell all the Christian-God-loving creationists about it
But, Brian, many God-loving creationists are anti-Catholic and think nuns are in league with the devil as a matter of course! I've yet to meet a hot nun / Sister in real life, though I have looked. I've read a few hot stories about them, though.
"I've realized how much religion can *add* to sex, provided one is of a certain imaginative bent."

Everett, I could not agree more! In fact, in a way I am appreciative of my rather repressed life back then. Because of all the things I've had to hold back, when I was finally able to release, it was explosive! Honestly I think I am overly sexual at this point (not that it's a bad thing - but it can certainly get in the way) since leaving Christianity for me was directly connected to embracing my sexuality. In my own mind, losing virginity has become symbolic for losing religion ... and the blasphemy-fetish grew from that.

"Sure, I can relate, in concept, but most religious authority figures are male, so I dont get much outside of naughty nuns."

Apeman, I suppose, as a male, you could place yourself in the position of the authority figure (yum, pastor seducing girl in church uniform with her skirt a little to high?). ^_^ I guess you'd have to have a bit of a sadistic streak in order to really get anything out of that one, though. When I'm in a submissive mood, I imagine this sort of situation ... I think, for me though, out of a simple desire to view religious authority figures in the most negative light. *shrug* Even though many pastors would never do this, they still take advantage of innocence, which is a horrible thing no matter how you spin it.

"Nice site there. God's gift of masturbation! Although under "threesomes" it has the usual double standard of female homosexuality being groovy and not male."

Prog, yea that one has always irritated me. I mean, I was brought up to believe that homosexuality in general was wrong, but the emphasis was always on male homosexuality. Less attention was paid to lesbianism and bisexuality simply wasn't real. Of course lesbianism would be more tolerable though ... men are 'spiritual leaders' of the group! :)

"I also think the idea of "burqa porn" is kind of hot, and I've found some pictures of it, too."

mmmm, I've never heard of it, but it's definitely a nice idea! Cooking up some fun images in my thought bubble here ...!
Yes, Tai, I know what you mean about becoming 'over sexual' after that repressive upbringing. Balance is hard to find, and if you're an introvert, you may worry whether a) you want to do X, b) you want to do X because you were told not to, or c) you're not sure what your motive is but, danged if D doesn't seem like the thing to do right now!

Here's the link to Catholic Sex Law.

 

Does fantasizing about bending Jesus over a cross count?

A serious affair of mine imagined to be raped. (I am not into role games, so I couldn't serve her...) At the same time, of course, she pointed out that in real life she would not want to be raped. So it's a phantasy of being powerless... sounds a bit like yours. In your case, tho, you add this "giving in" aspect of the other side to your own temptations. I assume that's an additional kicker... you sound quite imaginative :-)

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