Hello! I'm new to Atheist Nexus. I've been an atheist pretty much my entire life. My parents gave me a lot of freedom to do and make choices on my own. I wasn't neglected but I was pretty rebelious and sneeky.
That being said I took on drugs and booze at an early age but stopped due to a rehab visit when I was 15. At about 19 I got back into smoking grass, tripping a little acid and of course the occasional drink. I lived in Colorado back then.
I moved to Portland At 23 and had no eyes watching(family) so that's when my career in drugs like cocaine and meth started to take ahold of me. I didn't get into meth but coke wrapped it's tenticles around me and didn't let go for sometime. I managed to beat that problem on my own. Don't get me wrong I would still love a blast but I stay clear of it.
In this time of drugs I had to drink to come down and in times if I were lit I would snort coke to keep going. Now I realize that I still love the hell out of drinking and I've developed a pretty burly drinking problem.
I've decided as far as last Monday that I need to join A.A. so I did. I was reluctant for a long time because of the "God" talk and I must admit that now that I've joined A.A. it's making me a little batty. I'm wondering if anyone that reads this that is an alcohlic has worked the steps without feeling like "God" is being crammed down their throats? How do I deal with it? I don't want to be disrespectful to others that have those beliefs especially if it works for them.
Thanks in advance, Shad
You live in Portland, OR, not Portland ME, right? You might want to check out SMART recovery http://www.smartrecovery.org/ I checked for local meetings in OR, but you might want to write SMART and ask. They do have a 24 hr. on-line forum and meetings. SMART is a cognitive-behavioral, non-theistic alcohol/addiction counseling program begun by a humanist. Some people use both AA and SMART for their different approaches: Whatever works for you.
Wishing you success. You've worked on one tough problem, acknowledged another, and caan still worry about being disrespectful: my hat's off to you!
thank you. yeah i'm in oregon. i'll get there with it. i feel like i caught it before everything started going to shit. my computer also sucks so you doing a little digging for me is a real cool thing.
thank you sean. i'm glad that you sent me this info so i may seek more advice.
hi shad -
welcome to our sometimes nutty, sometimes pithy discussions :] you have had a hard road. it takes a lot of guts to get through your struggles and you have done great!
in new york city, we have an atheist AA group - still following the steps, but w/o the dumb higher power crap. there must be a group there that is not so into 'god' junk. might do to look around - or declare your skeptisism and see if anyone approaches you with whom you can bond.
as you know, also, that it is part of your dna that addicts you - you are struggling more with that than your developed demons - it may help. talking to someone here will definitely be good and i'm sure there are lots of us to confide in. have you tried cognitive therapy? - has nothing whatsoever to do with stupid god stuff and does not delve into upsetting past psych things - just deals with the present.
much good luck - blaze on - alexa
scepticism - jeesh!