Hi everyone. I am pretty new to the Nexus and was really excited to find this group.
So, a little background. I was raised in a christian home, but my family didn't take religion all that seriously. My mother was a science teacher and I think I was always taught to think scientifically. I gave up on the christian god at a pretty young age. Maybe 11 or 12. When I got into high school, I began practicing Wicca. I always rationalized my pagan ways by claiming it was undiscovered science. My favorite example was that an old witches remedy is to tie a piece of moldy bread to a wound and we now know that bread mold is penicillin. I used this to justify my practice, saying that all the spells and rituals that I performed would someday be proven to be actual science.
It shocks me now, the level of self delusion I was willing to undergo just to have some sort of spiritual system. I think it may have been the birth of my son that made me open my eyes. Here was this beautiful boy created not by any mystical force, but by my husband and I. I didn't ever want to lie to him and therefore had to stop lying to myself.