I have a dilemma. I haven't dated in years. Not because I can't get a date, but because I got my heart stomp on in the past. So since then I have had a wall up that no one has been able to penetrate. I mean no one...NO ONE! Anyway I just recently spent the weekend with an ex-girlfriend(Not the one that stomped on my heart)This ex is the only ex I am still friends with. she invited me to a party she was throwing at her house, so of course I went. For the most part the night went as expected (we got drunk and had fun) but late into the party (or early into the morning) things took a little turn. Nothing drastic but we started to get more intimate (extended hugs, caresses...) than we had been for a long time. Naturally I initially blamed this on the alcohol and tried to put it out of my mind. If your confused as to why this is a problem let me put it into perspective. A couple of years after we broke up we stopped talking (mostly she stopped talking to me) and a mutual friend told me why. He said "she said you kept bringing up your old relationship..." so it was my fault as most of my problems are. After that I have made a conscious effort to NEVER bring our past relationship up again. So it is easy to see how confusion sets in when not only do I wake up 10 the next morning cuddled up with her in her bed but then she invites me to spend the rest of the day with her which I did. Now here is the problem. I felt a crack in my wall. After examining this through sober eyes I realized(painfully) that I still have feelings for her and she may still have feelings for me, but I really don't know. I don't want to "poke and prod" and push her away. I also don't want to sit and stew for a month (thats probably the next time I'll see her.she is VERY busy) (also I'm a "high functioning autistic" meaning my mind will dwell on a problem until it is resolved) WHAT DO I DO?