Anthony, you wrote "I never entertain the idea that any god(s) might possibly exist."
In this discussion you've entertained the idea at considerable length.
I can honestly say I have no idea. My mom is a rather pragmatic Catholic, she never told me what to believe...she just said I had to go to church until I was confirmed, so with that and some instances at church had the most influence. Then just not going to Church for a long time loosened whatever ties I still had to the Church, though I still identified as a Catholic for the longest time because..well.. everyone belongs to a Church, right?
Then I made a friend, and her husband is an outspoken Atheist. I mentioned Intelligent Design and he would have a rebuttal, one time I picked up and read part of Carl Sagans book. And I stopped thinking about religion, I just didn't worry about it. I felt it was just appropriate to speak out against bad things, no matter what shield it hides under. God was just a figment of the mind. So then I found out what the word Atheist meant, and took that title. So, yeah.
My children found GOD to be merciful, honest and caring.
Yes, 'Good Old Dad' has always been there for them!
It was because of Sister Angela from Ireland who was my teacher in 4th class at the age of 10 years. Sometimes when I was naughty she would belt me on the bum and legs with her leather strap but when I was good she was nice to me.One day in class I was sitting at my desk with my catechism open and Sister Angela said that we would go to hell if we did not attend mass at least every Sunday and holy days of obligation. This scared me at first because I had already heard of the eternal fires of hell, I thought I might have to attend mass every day to make sure of my salvation. However, thereafter I thought about what Sister Angela said critically and I began to doubt it's truth.I was an agnostic child and if Jesus was real then I was cool with him anyway but I was concerned about getting 'stiffies' in class especially if Sister Angela told me to stand and come to the front of the class.
Damn, Napoleon! If Sister Emile, who I had for 8th grade, looked anything like Sister Angela, I might have stuck with it. Unfortunately, Sister Emile looked more like a decrepit version of Batman's mother. And just as freaking mean!
What Started me on my Discovery of Disbelief was hanging around Church and Preachers Way to Much. I would always read and dabble in atheist books. I always thought in my head that they had a point. The Black Church is so full of hypocrites and they operate like a dictatorship my way or Hell. There is also alot of Manipulation that occurs in the black church and it leads to alot of confusion and division. So I guess what started me on my path to disbelief is my disbelief in the structure of the church and then I started to question the God of the church and why he would allow some of the monsters that there is in the pulpit preaching the bogus lies and filling people with hate every sunday.
I didnt want to be apart of something that exploited people in such a way and caused them to view everything that they didnt understand into SIN OR THE DEVIL. So I guess what caused my disbelief was the notion that if you thought differently or if you werent afraid of change or if you didnt live your life with the NAIVE STUPID SIMPLE ELEMENTARY beliefs that they tell you to have that you are a problem or that you ask to many questions. In my personal view all things should be examined and brought into question and my Disbelief GREW FROM MY QUESTIONS and the BOGUS BS that is told to people every sunday in churchs all around america.
God trying to destroy us all a couple of times, and then deciding to come to earth as his own son so we could kill him in order to believe in him, and if we do that, then we can have eternal life and live in Hebben with him was a good start! A year ago I decided that it all made no sense.
Simple, direct, to the point. I LIKE it!
Everyone in mega church had different views/positions on god and what he wanted. Making their personal relationship selfish and about them. I lived in south and wondered why blacks/whites went to different churches. I dated a few girls in church and they were always drama queens or looking for a 10 with money. I wondered why friends only came about during church meetings. I felt unwanted and started seeing people in masks at church. Cartoonish and animated. The girl i was dating told me to pray about our relationship..she said god told her to stop dating me while god told me it was right. And she was insecure about her weight. Nothing appeared to be in control or one accord. I started doubting a personal god. growing up in a mormon family divided by JW's hate.then me being born again and hated..i realized after 911 how phony christianity is. Then internet educated me once i came to conclusion there were issues. After claiming being an atheist, i saw more hate toward me..which grew my atheism. My doubt turned to confimation there are no gods. I understand my presumption of gods was making me a believer.