Cheryl, nicely stated. I think many of us have these thoughts from time to time and I like your definition as a crisis of not knowing instead of not believing.
Religion made my life hell on earth, why should it be any different in the afterlife? Abandoning the god delusion improved my life in every way. Teagraves said it, if god is going to punish us just for the mistake of surviving to be born then this is a god not worth worshiping. If you haven't seen the website http://www.whywontgodhealamputees.com/ take a look.
What crushed my fears instantly was this thought. Would you follow ANY organization that would take a 6 year old child and terrorize them to the point of freezing their spirits with stories of punishment? Then when they are adults make them turn around and do the same to their children?
So let's say the odds go against you and every other thinking human who lived and there is a god. We're all planning a cookout by the lake of fire. Everyone will be there Carl Sagan, Albert Einstein, Simone Weil...it will be fun!
Pat Condell described the biblical nonsense known as original sin: "being billed for something I didn't order". Myself, I'd rather laugh with the sinners than cry with the saints (Billy Joel, Only the Good Die Young)
My wife was previously married to a fundie and said that they and their church members were so awful that she'd not want to be in any permanent afterlife with them - probably many of us know such people.
It's normal. I was so heavely conditioned as a child that It still runs through my mind sometimes too. My wife wants our kids to go to church (she is christian) but since she works on Sundays and I am at home with the kids I never take them. I refuse to let them grow up with that kind of fear if i can help it. IMO it is damaging to a childs development and teaching them about hell is almost a form of abuse.
I am three trillion self-organized cells operating as a collective unity for improved survivability. No cell is named John.
I am the emergent simulation of an evolved brain that can do anything nothing can do with nothing, including the inability to do anything to something.
I am sitting here in nowhere, writing stuff to nobody, letting the amusement of I, ride nowhen good by... bye, bye... all there is, is I, being wrong...
I'm an atheist. I cannot be wrong.