I should have probably introduced myself before I posted. I am an atheist even though I admit I would love to believe in a God.
I was raised Mormon, left at 19. Dabbled in various forms of spirituality most of my life.
About 4 years ago, I translated the Bible myself using base etymolgy and what I found left me with no doubt there is no God.
I have some brain damage. I have had TLE from birth due to trauma in utero. I only found out recently and it explained a lot, especially my hyper-religious tendancies most of my life. I am also hypergraphic. Later brain damage, several concusssions and an attack that caused oxygen deprivation for an undetermined amount of time, has left me with a few other quirks as well. Occasionally I write sideways, backwards, miss or double words and sometimes miss entire sentences. I try to read over my posts and correct things to the best of my ability. I have good days and bad days. I try not to post on my bad days. Another quirk that people on the site here have already encountered, I am a pathological truth teller. The onset of this was after a bad concussion and it's pretty much destroyed my life. People always say they want the truth, but seldom really do. It does'nt mean that I can't lie, it's just very painful for me to do so. I'd have to be in a life or death situation probably. It also means I have a compulsion to speak or write what I am thinking. This can be as annoying for me as it is for you. Ok well maybe it will be more annoying for you LOL. I apologise in advance for anyone I am sure I am going to offend. So that particular concussion I lost all of my musical abilties and gained pathological truth telling. Not a good trade LOL
The only option I have according to doctors is brain surgery and I am just not that brave. I have recently found a shrink who is confidant he can help through hypnosis to rewire myself a bit and overcome some of these quirks. I have to say, he is an impressive man and I do believe he can help my problems. It will take time, so please understand that I am working on it.
If something I say happens to anger you, please know that I never post with that intent. Just ask me to clarify and I will try to explain my intentions. I am quite used to people being angry at this point and I do understand. Just know that it is never my intent. I can get a bit miffed if someone uses the word "excuse" in regard to my condition however. I am doing everything humanly possible to try and correct this situation...ok well not the surgery. If I say something that angers you, please take time to take a breath and then calmly re-read my statement. If that does not solve the issue, then simply ask me to clarify. Thanks ! :)
My family is used to me. They describe me as a cross between "House" and " Dick Solomon" (thrird rock from the sun.) It was very difficult on them as my symptoms progressed, but we all laugh about it now and they make fun of me incessantly. I like that. it's the healthist way to deal with all of this. Feel free to make fun of my quirks, I know I do LOL...well if I don't get banned first. I won't hold against them if I do get banned, just promise me I can come back when I am rewired. Peace, Krystal