I have had serious doubts all my life, very late in life, I have finally "come out", as it were. It was finding, and watching, Christopher Hitchens, then Dawkins, then Harris, that finally gave me the inspiration to make the final leap. It's a strange feeling, I am sure you all, already know about, but I feel free, like a load is off my shoulders. For so long that nagging doubt, "is there s celestial dictator watching me?" has colored my decisions about actions and thoughts. My only problem is that at this point I do not know a single other Atheist in my area. So I was excited to find Nexus where possibly I will find others to communicate with. I guess we all start out thinking we are the only Atheist in the world.