Hello, My name is Matt. I'm 21 years old. I live in Upstate New York, in a very rural area. Also, its very religious. We have alot of christian baptist fundamentalists around here, and my family is among them, and I was one of them. Now, I'm a proud Godless Gay Heathen! But my family isn't happy with any of that.
I'm a Librarian, a writer, an aspiring linguist, and an avid reader. I read so much of the Bible, that it became more and more impossible to believe and see it as a Good source of morality. Hence, I went superfundy to avoid it, then deconverted.
Been an atheist in denial from age 15-20. At age 19/20, I finally came to terms with the fact that I don't believe in any supernatural. I wanted to "believe" to avoid the question of death among other things. Now I see myself back then as silly.
How are you all? I'm glad to have joined you!
What's the weather like down there?
We're in a pocket of New York that looks like its in the Bible Belt, complete with confederate flags. Redneck pride I guess. Poor, white, uneducated, and religious all describe it well. Though leave the countryside for some of the cities, and the demographics start to change quickly. Weird.
It was easier for my mom to find out that I was an atheist. my family didn't like my being an atheist, but they took that far better than they took my being gay. Its another unnecessary source of tension between me and them.
It was actually an inbetween experience at school coming out. In high school, for a short period of time I came out as "bisexual" (because I thought it was more acceptable and gave me the option of dating women). Some didn't like it and stopped being my friend and even harassed me, and others just didn't care. Some of my friends just knew it all along.
I don't get it either, sorry he gets picked on for acting girly sometimes.
It's funny how people think the stereotypes are indicative of you being gay, like being a girly guy and all. My younger brother has both a lisp and can make a perfect "gay voice", and I can't. And I'm the one who is gay. I was also the one to play sports and stuff like that, my younger brother, forget it.
One mind at a time , right ?. Patience and eloquence and to say the right thing at the right moment .
To pause before speaking and to actually weigh my words . Just conversation becomes challenging !
I am not on the barricades but hope to inspire many in my lifetime as well .
Congratulations on recognizing the world for what is is early in life , I envy your determination at your current age.
AJ ( allmost halfway there at 48)
I was weird when I was younger, like at about 13, I'd avoid being around gay people unless no one else was around. Then I'd be really nice to them because Jesus loves everyone. Then I'd get afraid that the devil was tempting me because I was starting to think things (hint, subconscious thoughts becoming conscious). They were usually the ones I found cute.